Hello loves, I'm back again with another one of my poems. I really appreciate the love I received from you all for my previous poems. I hope you keep taking care of me and also continue to giving me your feedback. It will help me become a better poet/writer =)
When I wrote How Are You? I was imagining, how I'd feel when the one I love, doesn't appreciate me in the same way, like I do. No matter how wrong that person is for me, I choose not to believe it. Simply because I love him, and that sole reason is enough for me. But then as the sky grows darker, I begin to realize how much I love the rain and how much he doesn't. Because of him, I started avoiding going outside whenever it rained. I wish he could get drenched with me, just because he wants to see me smile. Because I'd do anything to see him happy, even if I don't like it myself..but in a way it will kinda make me happy too.
How Are You?
As I walk through this familiar street, I walk past your door,
It’s a cloudy afternoon, and you hate the rain, so are you by the window?
Day-dreaming about our yesterday, those wonderful, wonderful days,
Who am I kidding, it is just me isn’t it, receiving this uneven sting of pain.
Did you lie when you said whenever I see the crescent moon in the sky?
It means no matter where you are the moon will be reflecting your smile.
I want to know, how you have been,
Now that life is back to normal, has reality kicked in?
No more late night calls, or early morning texts,
You’re doing quiet fine without me, that’s what your friend said.
I wish I was fine too, I wish I could say I’m over you,
I wish I could prove that my daily routines do not revolve around you!
Like making tea for two, and turning on the geyser before you wake up,
For you to start the day with sweetness and take a warm bath in the tub.
Because I still do, unintentionally,
I wish I could say your hold on me is temporary.
People pass me by giving me a positive nod and wave,
They have heard about us, but they don’t know whom to blame.
Because I was passionate but blind,
And you were a believable lie.
No one saw what you really were on the inside,
A monstrous player of the worst kind.
I kept on walking till your apartment was out of sight,
I made a turn to the left and was halted by the red light.
I guess it’s not my time yet to walk by,
Not unless I really am ready to say goodbye.
Even God knows I must let go of you, permanently,
And stop walking past your door, purposefully or unintentionally.
I should find a different route, even if it’s long,
And not relate myself to every sad breakup song.
I need to get over you, and will I one day?
Could I not see your reflection on the moon, whenever I gaze?
It doesn’t matter what you think of me,
Or how little you think of me-
All I know is I must let you move on ahead,
Because I want my heart, which I gave you, back in my chest.
I may sound strong, strong enough for the thundering clouds to roll,
But if it rains now, I may have to knock on your door.
They will all give me a sigh, and say “That girl will never learn,”
But nobody asks how much it hurts, picturing you with another girl.
And how are you? I can see your trying your hardest to smile,
But I can see the puffiness in your eyes.
I can’t stay long; I’ll be here till the rain stops,
Though I want to keep seeing your face till my heart stops.
I must let you go it’s for my own good,
But when I’m standing so close to you, it’s no good.
I know you feel the same, we’re hard to replace,
I will say my final goodbye to you, just not today.
It’s about to stop raining; the clouds are telling me so,
But I think I’ll linger the taste of your lips, for a little more!
(c) Dipika Syngai (c)
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